chocolate mint hill

Can you pick the pieces for me?

The one that was left

It was old now, not white anymore

But it was the most special

Nor is it Diamond or Pearl

But the value was so high

Will you pick the pieces for me?

when I can’t come

No longer here or there

It won’t be a burden I’m sure

But I want your care, if you do

Nor is it Diamond or Pearl

But the value was mighty high

Had you pick the pieces of me,

though you knew me not,

a thread had been measured,

and mend the lost pieces.

Thread of Happiness for a Lost Spirit

Who lingers only on the greys and blacks

How I longed to extend

the arms of gratitude

As the pieces met

There I am as a whole

Because you, my dear

had come along. ^-^

written on paper: Dec. 04, 2007 {cgm}

Hi there, You…!

been a while, isn’t it?

How long?

days…months…years…

You remember Me, yes?

hope You do.

Coz I’ve been waiting

half my life

in this Tower of Lone

You came, once

I thought You the Knight

Rescue Me from my Prisoner

I was free, the first time

I laughed with You

I walked with You

I ran with You

I cried my happiness

with You

We bring each other’s comfort

We feed each other’s hunger

We warm each other’s Hearts

Then..the silent snap!

awaken again in my prison

You left Me lying, helpless

Isolated in the Tower of Lone

I waited, keep on waiting

But there is no one there

keeping my hopes high

I never want to surrender

Then the sudden Ray

so strong almost blinded me!

I was escaped

I was free, the second time

I can laugh, but without you

I can walk, but without you

I can run, but without you

and I cried in emptiness

for you..

written on 17th May 2008…inspired by a graphic picture that i saw somewhere here in the computer…

On top of the roof
The air is so cold and so calm
I say your name in silence
You don’t wanna hear it right now
The eyes of the city
Are counting the tears falling down
Each one a promise
Of everything you never found

I scream into the night for you
Don’t make it true
Don’t jump
The lights will not guide you through
They’re deceiving you
Don’t jump
Don’t let memories go
Of me and you
The world is down there out of view
Please don’t jump

You open your eyes
But you can’t remember what for
The snow falls quietly
You just can’t feel it no more
Somewhere out there
You lost yourself in your pain
You dream of the end
To start all over again

I scream into the night for you
Don’t make it true
Don’t jump
The lights will not guide you through
They’re deceiving you
Don’t jump
Don’t let memories go
Of me and you
The world is down there out of view
Please don’t jump
Don’t jump

I don’t know how long
I can hold you so strong
I don’t know how long
Just take my hand
Give it a chance
Don’t jump

I scream into the night for you
Don’t make it true
Don’t jump
The lights will not guide you through
They’re deceiving you
Don’t jump

Don’t let memories go
Of me and you
The world is down there out of view
Please don’t jump
Don’t jump
And if all that can’t hold you back
I’ll jump for you

Band: Tokio Hotel

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=nevnXxRxfjU

it’s late but i’m not home yet
something’s bothering the sky
i saw red…deep red
what? blood?
how can it…
suddenly the tense white light shone
so much i thought i’m going blind
but wait…
oh, it’s just the streetlight…
hhhaaiiii….
ingatkan apa la sdh tu…
go home lah!

^-^

the day you said goodnight

is the Goodbye of my Hello

you suffocate me with that perfect smile

you stabbed me with those blue eyes

how much you made me suffer

never once you seem to wonder

the illusions you got me in

oh, isn’t this cruel enough?

oh, isn’t this hurtful enough?

oh this is ENOUGH!!

i looked up as the Fire Wings

spreading wide

fly away from here

fly away from you..

Fire Wings burnt the

monster in my dream

Fire Wings burnt the

monster in you

Fire Wings flames the

ice in me.

**this piece plops in my head on 12-Feb-08**

When I see your smile,

Tears run down my face.

I can’t replace.

And now that I’m strong,
I have figured out,

How this world turns cold and it breaks through my soul.

And I know I’ll find deep inside me,
I can be the one.

I will never let you fall!
I’ll stand up with you forever!

I’ll be there for you through it all,

Even if saving you sends me to heaven! (fade out)

*** this lyric just pulled my heart into it…damn so good!!!!***

it’s three days before Christmas…what the plan addy?…i dunno?!..probably sleep & eat & sleep & eat…oh no, there’s so many things to do…like what?…ur laundry, remember? u only have time for those in the holidays, haha….hey! what are you talking about? i do laundry every day. that’s why my hands are getting drier and drier :(  …huh?! really?!…can’t believe me? i’m a big girl now u know!..big girls do laundry? even small girls do laundry, u fool!hahaha…whatever!what else should to do this holiday?hhmmpphh…just stay at home & relax coz it’s not a long vacation anyways…yeah u r right…i’m thinking of reading a book..well u read my mind there!hehehe…we’re one hell of a bookworm, aren’t we?!…what do u mean by "we"?…"we" as in me & u, duuhhh…r u nuts?…i’m no chipmunks so i’m not nuts…yes u r!..no i’m not!…yes u r!…no i’m not!!!!…u r, silly! coz u & i r 1…wha..oh, yeah hehehe..right, right! u mean we’re twins?….no, we’re not twins! r u trying to  be a dumb or something?…of course i am not!…u my dear addy is me & i am u, get it?…aahhh..ok! so when u said i’m a fool & silly also a "nuts" it also means u, then?!! hahahahahahaha….<hhhmmmpphh…i’ve nothing to say anymore, suit urself. i’m getting outta here >:(  >

have u ever been into a situation where in today you’re the most happy person on earth then just when it’s not yet 24 hours, everything collapsed by a sudden news, a bad news that made you go panic and don’t know what to do then all of the sudden you don’t realize where your feet brings you and all you hear was people talking, speculating, gossipping, but you keep on walking and there were others who keeps on talking to you to do this and that and you just said "yes..ok" but the fact is you are too scared and panic that you just don’t know what to do and when you tried to speak nothing came out right coz your voice trembles and you struggled to find the right word that you can’t even defend your right or the right of your loved one that in the end after everything was done you were left there lying helplessly coz you are defeated!
that my dear, is just what i felt until today that i believe all the reasons i’ve learnt never came on the day i got scared. i wish it’s not happening and it was all a bad joke but it was and it was never good..none is ever good to me..sad but true.

seriously whenever i’m in the front of this monitor, i just don’t know what to do, what to search, or whatever…just that i want to be here, & lotfing around here…just that i’m doing nothing brings me to my habitat…as if!…seriously?…seriously! my head’s into t.v drama Grey’s Anatomy lately, always with that remark "seriously!"…as if i’m a serious person …dduuuhhhh… ;P

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